Skip to main content

Unexpected Expectations

So, I had a conversation with a close friend of mine about how it hurts my feelings when I do things for others but they aren't there when I need them. Or how they do things that I feel go against our friendship. I made myself a promise from now on not to let the actions of others hurt my feelings. I'm going to be more in control of my feelings and how I let others actions affect me.

A couple of days later my friend texted me saying she was tired of always doing for others but they were never available when she needed them. I totally understood where she was coming from. Sometimes we give so much of ourselves to others to the point when we need it, no one is there. It's tiring and draining.

I sat down and analyzed this and it's just who we (my friend and I) are. Sometimes we give so much of ourselves to help those in need or those who can't help themselves even when we are in a place of needing help ourselves. In my time of meditation over this issue I decided to just do what I could do and worry about my own actions. I was not going to let the lack of support from others put me in a negative place. I'm not the type of person to sit around angry or mad all the time and I was not going to start now.

So, I told my friend how I started handling things in hopes that during her meditation she could come to peace with the situation like I had. I've started to venture out more on my own in hopes of meeting new people.
You also have to realize that you have different friends that bring different things to your friendship. Eveyone is not for every adventure you embark upon in life.

If you have to pull back and reevaluate the situation by all means do so. Your peace and happiness comes first in every type of relationship/friendship you have with another individual. If you feel like you're always doing most of the work then it's probably a toxic relationship/friendship, especially if you have already discussed your issue with the person at hand. It might be hard to let that person go but don't continue to drag negative weight around.

Remember I LOVE YOU!

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

This is how it started...

       I was asked to answer a table topic question. Table Topics is an impromptu question given to you by the Table Topics Master. You have 1-2 minutes to answer the question with a 30 second grace period. My first time being called on for Table Topics I was so nervous and shaking in my shoes.     I signed up for my Pathway & set out to start my Toastmaster journey. My first Pathway was Leadership Development. I gave my first speech which was an icebreaker to my club on December 7, 2019, titled, "Who is Kennedi?"     Listen to it below...

Follow me along my Toastmaster's Pathway...

      I get ideas, and I run with them. Many times, without doing the proper research before executing the vision. After battling depression over my HIV diagnosis, I decided to be a public HIV Advocate. What made me decide to do this? I told myself it was to assist young black women like myself not to feel alone or ashamed because we live with HIV. Once I came out to my family and friends with my status, they were very supportive.     One day my cousin sent me an event advertising an upcoming women's group, Toastmaster club. Before this, I had seen Toastmasters advertisements and video clips, but I was always scared to go. I have a very warm, friendly personality, but if I was put on a stage and the room was quiet, I FROZE UP. The people that know me are shaking their heads like not you, Kennedi. Yes, it's true. I knew that I needed to improve my general speaking skills if I wanted be a public advocate. I had a fabulous time, and that night I joined Toastmasters...

Disability Pride Month

Disability Pride Month is celebrated annually in July to honor people with disabilities and their contributions to society. As of 2024, at the tender age of 37, I am living with two chronic diseases. I'm grateful to God that I wake up each day. On my worst days, I wonder why me, Lord. Then I look back, remember what He’s already brought me through, and thank Him. Let’s all remember that not all disabilities look the same. One of my nieces saw my handicap sticker on my table and asked who was handicapped. I explained to her that not all disabilities are people in wheelchairs or visible to the naked eye. I battle with being an advocate for my new disability because I feel like I'm too young to be going through all I'm currently going through. Then, I must stop and remind myself that God still has me here for a reason. I pray that my presence helps someone else continue to fight and push through whatever they are going through. Remember, we are not alone. I'm grateful to m...