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Trust...Who?!


I WAS ALWAYS trusting people. I gave you my trust until you gave me a reason not to trust you. It did not always serve me right trusting people I didn't know so freely. But that was just who I was. Always wanting to see the good in others even when they showed me their bad side.

Life after my diagnosis taught me to trust nothing and watch everyone. I hate that my diagnosis has changed me and made me feel this way but it's where I'm at now. I don't know how to get back to trusting others. Even when I think I trust someone that little voice in the back of my head starts saying things like "they are using you, they are lying don't believe that, they only want what they can get from you and then they'll be gone."

 I do want to get back to trusting others as of right now it's a slow process. Especially since I've been burned by people, I thought would never do me wrong. Never the less the show must go on. I'll keep praying and working on my trust issues. 

 Remember I LOVE YOU!!!
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