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2020: New Vision

Happy New Year!!! Oh, how I have missed you. My plate was full & I was neglecting things that I love such as writing blogs. I had my hands in many pots & they weren’t always beneficial to me. 

I started to get disappointed, overwhelmed & frustrated with people & things. So I made a decision at the end of last year to step back & focus on Kennedi & the things that were near & dear to my heart. I know a lot of people will be hurt or disappointed but I’ve given so much of my time & energy to others that I have none left for myself right now. 

I am MENTALLY DRAINED. I know deep down in my heart I deserve the same things I give unto others such as my time, a shoulder to lean on during rough times, & endless love. So I’ll be focusing on giving myself these things. I deserve them plus more. I refuse to let depression win. 

“I was glad when they said unto me, Let us go into the house of the Lord.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭122:1‬ ‭

On today the first Sunday of the year I almost let depression win. In spite of how I was feeling I got up & got cute for The Lord because when you look good you feel good (or that’s what they say). That was the best decision I have made yet in 2020. The Lord showed up & showed out today at Greater Victory Christian Center. I was filled with the Holy Spirit. I was in the right place at the right time. Pastor said forget & forgive. Then she said the main person you have to forgive is yourself. I knew The Lord was speaking to me. I hadn’t truly forgave myself for the bad decisions I have made in my life for the times I should have loved Kennedi better. But today my slate was cleaned & my faith was restored. Sometimes we have to lay at the feet of God & lay out our hearts cry. 

Remember I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!


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