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Lost. Stuck. Blank.

I am in a complete daze. We are living in uncertain times. COVID-19 has disrupted what we thought life was. Life will now & forevermore never be the same. We have lost so many loved ones that we never got a chance to tell I love you or goodbye one last time. Some were swept away in their sleep & we did not even know the cause of it until disaster struck.

Everyone is saying we have to pray & seek God and I am a firm believer in the Holy Trinity. God has seen me through some mighty dark days. But what about the individuals that do not believe in God? What about the individuals of other religions or the spiritual but non-religious individuals? We need to find common ground & come together as human beings and that common ground should be love. If we extend love & kindness to one another, oh what ways we could change the world & the way everyone views it.

Through this whole ordeal, I have been praying & reading my Bible devotionals, I have also hit my hard-dark days through all of this time. I have had a lot I have been personally dealing with while working on the frontline. The conversation me & my therapist will have when I can see her again face-to-face. No, I do not want a phone or telehealth appointment. I always look forward to our face-to-face sessions. I am kind of over virtual meetings right now. I miss seeing my people face-to-face. I miss getting loving & warm hugs as a way of greeting. I am a social butterfly stuck in a dreary dark place.

I wrote this blog to free some of the madness from my mind. Today especially I am one blow away from going crazy. So, while some of on my look like we are handling it all well at times we break too. Everyone has their day. This month has been mine.

Remember, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!

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