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I am spoiled

Shhhhh... don't tell anyone I admitted this. It feels good to have people coddle you with love and affection after feeling so isolated and alone growing up.  I felt like an invisible person as a child. I normally stuck to my books and schoolwork. I was like a shy quiet nerd and I wasn't popular in school nor sports, so I kept my head in the books. This continued as I grew older where I started to blossom, and I became a bit more comfortable in my own skin. But after this tough life lesson where I had to learn self-love, you can't tell me I'm not the sugar honey ice tea. Your opinion doesn't matter. I know I'm beautiful and I show it often.  It's sad that it takes trauma or a hard life lesson for us to learn our worth, but... YOU ARE SO WORTH IT. That storm was sent to reinforce what you already know. You are it and can't nobody tell you sugar honey ice tea or rain on your parade. Take that lesson and find the rainbow at the end of it. If yo...

Admitting defeat

When you look at the picture you see a smart, beautiful, kind, caring educated black woman. I see an exhausted and frustrated broken black woman. My bestfriend said it best when he said I sounded defeated because I was. You ask me what's gotten the best of me and I'll tell you life, and the only way you give up is to be 6 feet under. I'm not ready to go for I still have work to do here on earth. I had just left my therapy appointment and cried myself sick. I left feeling like nothing was better even though we covered a lot of ground and she gave me tips to work through this stage of life I had found myself in. I still felt broken because I have never felt this down and out before. I didn't know how or where to start to pick myself back up and that frustrated me even more. I told myself this too shall pass. Don't be afraid to admit defeat or ask for help. Even Jesus had 12 disciples watching His back. Remember, I LOVE YOU!!!