When you look at the picture you see a smart, beautiful, kind, caring educated black woman. I see an exhausted and frustrated broken black woman. My bestfriend said it best when he said I sounded defeated because I was. You ask me what's gotten the best of me and I'll tell you life, and the only way you give up is to be 6 feet under. I'm not ready to go for I still have work to do here on earth. I had just left my therapy appointment and cried myself sick. I left feeling like nothing was better even though we covered a lot of ground and she gave me tips to work through this stage of life I had found myself in. I still felt broken because I have never felt this down and out before. I didn't know how or where to start to pick myself back up and that frustrated me even more. I told myself this too shall pass. Don't be afraid to admit defeat or ask for help. Even Jesus had 12 disciples watching His back. Remember, I LOVE YOU!!!