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She Speaks!

 After years of writing poetry I finally performed in front of a live audience!!! It wasn’t as frightening as I thought. The crowd showed me love and I had fun! Here’s to more live performances in the future!!!

Sis, get PrEP-ed UP

Guess who's back?! KLow is back!!!

Life is for the living!!!

Lost. Stuck. Blank.

I am in a complete daze. We are living in uncertain times. COVID-19 has disrupted what we thought life was. Life will now & forevermore never be the same. We have lost so many loved ones that we never got a chance to tell I love you or goodbye one last time. Some were swept away in their sleep & we did not even know the cause of it until disaster struck. Everyone is saying we have to pray & seek God and I am a firm believer in the Holy Trinity. God has seen me through some mighty dark days. But what about the individuals that do not believe in God? What about the individuals of other religions or the spiritual but non-religious individuals? We need to find common ground & come together as human beings and that common ground should be love. If we extend love & kindness to one another, oh what ways we could change the world & the way everyone views it. Through this whole ordeal, I have been praying & reading my Bible devotionals, I have also hit my ...

Parents all your kids want is an apology

I know there’s no how-to book for parenting or exact guidelines on how to be a good parent, but as you grow & learn from your mistakes you should talk these things out with your child(ren). That old saying I’m the parent & you are the child just do as I say is the reason we keep carrying these curses from generation to generation.   As you became a parent you should have remembered the things you didn’t like that your parents did to you & not repeat these things with your offsprings. That “it was how I was raised” is not always the right way. As the book of life tells us when you know better you do better. So I’m sure there are things you know you could have done better than your parents. For the unnecessary situations or harm you brought to your child, for the lies & broken promises, for abandoning them, for the abuse, or for the early introduction to drugs, alcohol, and/or sex APOLOGIZE.  Since a lot of these generational curses are still being passe...

Cast-Iron Cookware

If your grandmother, mother, or aunt prepared meals using a cast-iron skillet or Dutch oven pot you knew that meal was heaven blessed. There were plenty of Sunday dinners spent with families sharing love and a meal prepared from one cast-iron skillet. You can use it to cook your vegetables, fry your chicken or fish, and bake your bread. This is an old kitchen secret weapon many people don’t make use of nowadays. I grew up watching my grandmother prepare plenty of meals using her cast-iron collection. She had skillets in all sizes. My favorite one was the small one you could fry 1-2 eggs in. And after using any one of her cast-iron dishes you better clean them properly or prepare to hear her wrath. In honor of this being Black History Month, we should start gathering more around the table to spend time away from the tv, digital and electronic devices to spend more time with our loved ones. Time is of the essence. Remember I LOVE YOU!!!!!

Start with Self

So, I’m going to try to share my experiences with you more often & be totally open & honest with you. When I moved back to GA, I made the decision to love people regardless of their circumstances or how they treated me. I can honestly say it has been one of the best decisions I have made in my life. The love I have been pouring into the community has been coming back to me double fold. I call people & ask for help or favors & they don’t hesitate to help or send me someone who can help. When they see an opportunity that they know will help me grow or network they send them my way. Even if I can’t afford the experiences, they have helped me make them happen & I thank God for putting me in the right place at the right time. I promise you it’s nobody but God. On Martin Luther King, Jr Day I was invited to a freedom dinner. I honestly was not feeling very well but I knew being around my loves would cheer me up while I was at the invite. Derrick said to me yo...

2020: New Vision

Happy New Year!!! Oh, how I have missed you. My plate was full & I was neglecting things that I love such as writing blogs. I had my hands in many pots & they weren’t always beneficial to me.  I started to get disappointed, overwhelmed & frustrated with people & things. So I made a decision at the end of last year to step back & focus on Kennedi & the things that were near & dear to my heart. I know a lot of people will be hurt or disappointed but I’ve given so much of my time & energy to others that I have none left for myself right now.  I am  MENTALLY DRAINED.  I know deep down in my heart I deserve the same things I give unto others such as my time, a shoulder to lean on during rough times, & endless love. So I’ll be focusing on giving myself these things. I deserve them plus more. I refuse to let depression win.  “I was glad when they said unto me, Let us go into the house of the Lord.” ‭‭Psalms‬ ‭122:1‬ ‭ ...

I am spoiled

Shhhhh... don't tell anyone I admitted this. It feels good to have people coddle you with love and affection after feeling so isolated and alone growing up.  I felt like an invisible person as a child. I normally stuck to my books and schoolwork. I was like a shy quiet nerd and I wasn't popular in school nor sports, so I kept my head in the books. This continued as I grew older where I started to blossom, and I became a bit more comfortable in my own skin. But after this tough life lesson where I had to learn self-love, you can't tell me I'm not the sugar honey ice tea. Your opinion doesn't matter. I know I'm beautiful and I show it often.  It's sad that it takes trauma or a hard life lesson for us to learn our worth, but... YOU ARE SO WORTH IT. That storm was sent to reinforce what you already know. You are it and can't nobody tell you sugar honey ice tea or rain on your parade. Take that lesson and find the rainbow at the end of it. If yo...

Admitting defeat

When you look at the picture you see a smart, beautiful, kind, caring educated black woman. I see an exhausted and frustrated broken black woman. My bestfriend said it best when he said I sounded defeated because I was. You ask me what's gotten the best of me and I'll tell you life, and the only way you give up is to be 6 feet under. I'm not ready to go for I still have work to do here on earth. I had just left my therapy appointment and cried myself sick. I left feeling like nothing was better even though we covered a lot of ground and she gave me tips to work through this stage of life I had found myself in. I still felt broken because I have never felt this down and out before. I didn't know how or where to start to pick myself back up and that frustrated me even more. I told myself this too shall pass. Don't be afraid to admit defeat or ask for help. Even Jesus had 12 disciples watching His back. Remember, I LOVE YOU!!!

Finding your Peace

People are always telling you to do what's best for you, but they judge & criticize you when you do. I stepped out on faith & moved to Maryland. Me, the girl who said she was a DSGG (down South Georgia girl) for life. I was tired of my job & I needed a new start. When I received not 1 but 2 job offers in D.C. & Virginia, I knew this was the fresh start I had been praying to God about. I did everything that was necessary to make this move as easy as possible. If you know me, you know I HATE MOVING. And moving to another state is a whole other type of headache. Well after a few months of living in Maryland I felt myself slipping back to my dark place. I had promised myself I wouldn't let anything or anybody take away the peace I had found within. While I loved the different events, the DMV offers & the different cultures blended in the area I was not at peace with myself. So, I started planning my escape route back to Georgia. Yes, I was only gone...

Stages of Accepting a Positive Diagnosis

Okay Is Not Okay

"How are you doing? How are you feeling today?" When someone answers these questions with, I'm okay or I'm good or I'm fine, THEY ARE NOT AND I REPEAT THEY ARE NOT FINE, GOOD, OR OKAY.  Personally, I know I'm guilty of answering like this. I don't always want to discuss my feelings or talk about what is bothering me. I don't like feeling useless or helpless. I don't want others pity. It's a mental thing for me. Some people are just naturally private about their personal matters. As a good friend or person just let that other person know you are there for them whenever they need you. It's good to know you have someone in your corner when you feel alone or when you are going through something in life. Remember I LOVE YOU!!!

What's Real

In a world where reality TV and social media reigns, most don't know what's real and what's fake. We live behind memes, filters, and gifs so we don't have to face reality. And the reality is not backstabbing your friends or sleeping with your girl or homeboy better half. Nor is having a bunch of kids and not taking care of them. Put down your phone, cut off your tv and communicate with those around you. Get our villages and family structures back in the black communities. There are no blessings in drama. How much success will you have if you hurt your sisters and brothers to get to the top? It's not fun if you have no one to enjoy it with. Disconnect from what society tells you, you should have and be doing at this point in your life. God knew you from the end to the beginning. He's an awesome God and He makes no mistakes. So, merge back into your lane and let God guide your steering wheel to where it's supposed to go. Don't worry about those driving t...

What I’ve learned since my diagnosis

Life is hard. Sometimes you will receive an unexpected blow when you think all is well & right in your world. That doesn’t mean you quit, don’t give the devil the victory. You are an overcomer. On your hard days wake up and push through. Showing up is half the battle, and the more you do this, you will teach yourself that this problem isn’t as bad as you thought. You will get through it just keep the faith. Do whatever you have to do on the legal side of the law to keep your head floating above water. I promise you it will all work out in due season. Dance during the storm and show your problems you have somebody bigger that fights your battles for you. On my worst days, I write and get it all out of my head or I talk to someone I can trust. There are still days when I cry my way through it but I get through it. Find things that help you survive the pain. I didn’t quit & neither can you. Remember I love you!!!

Nothing but Gratitude

Giving glory to God who is the head of my life. Your love & support exceeded my expectations on yesterday. I knew I was going to receive love & support because I try to extend love & support to all of mankind but y’all had me shedding tears all day. God grants me grace & mercy everyday so why can’t I do the exact same thing for my fellow brothers & sisters. I appreciate all of the kind words spoken to me & over my life. I didn’t get here by myself. God put all of you beautiful people in my life for a reason. You know I’m always here if you need an ear or shoulder to lean on. Remember I LOVE YOU!!! P.S. Because of your love & support my video has been viewed over 500 times. Plus my coming out blog has been viewed over 350 times. I pray it has helped & educated someone.

So HAPPY being ME!!!

What the devil meant to destroy me turned into my purpose! In 2016 I went through an experience that I never thought would happen to me...but IT DID! I received a call saying I was HIV positive. After the initial confusion, shock, hurt, disappointment, & anger I flipped that negative energy around & used it for my good. NOTE: I have HIV & not AIDS. HIV is the VIRUS and AIDS is the DISEASE after a person CD4 cell count drops below 200 cells/mm or gets an opportunist infection they can receive an AIDS diagnosis. After going through all of the emotions known to mankind, I birthed KLowInspires, Corp. to inspire & uplift black women. Especially the women living in fear because of how the world treats People Living With HIV (PLWH). We must motivate and empower each other. We carry our spouses, our significant others, our children, our parents, our siblings, our grandparents, etc. but we invest so little into ourselves until it’s too late. After coming to terms with my d...

Have you had the Talk?

How many of you in your 30s can say your parent(s) sat you down and had “the bird & the bees talk” with you? If you are one of the lucky few, I applaud your parents. Not many parents know how to or feel comfortable talking to their kids about sex. They don’t know the right age to have the talk or they assume if they have the talk with you, you will want to start having sex. It is not an easy subject to address or you can never really know the right time to have it. But IT NEEDS TO BE HAD! With everything going on in the streets today it is better you teach your kids then they learn from their friends or strangers. In the black community we just get told you better not bring no baby home or you are going to be an adult your childhood will be over. Or when we come home with kids at young ages most parents try to play the baby off as theirs. This is teaching us nothing but how to lie and be deceitful. I applaud those who were teenage parents and made it work. To go against all o...

You Will Make It!

So I got a new job in another state. Daily I was experiencing every emotion known to mankind during my move. I had a few things to finish back home before I made my new move. We threw my grandmother a surprise 80th birthday party. Which we killed & she LOVED it!!! Then I had to go back & finish packing up my apartment. You never know how much stuff you have until it’s time to move. I donated so many items to less fortunate people I don’t know where all of those things had fit into my one bedroom. I was jumping through hoops to finish all of my requirements for my upcoming job. A background check, a drug screen, a physical you name it I had to complete it. My window of time was closing down I was stressed, nervous, scared, & excited. I was stressed because moving is stressful but moving to a new state is worse. Nervous because starting over always plays on your nerves. Scared because I was leaving my comfort zone. Excited for the new opportunities that awaited me in my...

KINKY

Recently I went to see the movie Kinky with actors Vivica A. Fox, Robert Richard, Dawn Richard, Gary Dourdan, and more. Let's talk about the elephant in the room. Most women don't know what they want in the bedroom or they are afraid to ask for what they want for fear of being labeled a hoe or freak. So, we end up sexually frustrated on top of everything else going on in our daily lives. If we can take charge in the OR room, courtroom, and classrooms we can take charge in OUR BEDROOMS. No one deserves to leave the bed unfulfilled. It's okay to watch porn or buy some toys to help spice up things to help get you to the finish line. We as women also must get out of our heads. Sex for us is tied to our emotions. Whether you want to accept it or not we are emotional beings. If he has pissed you off or you are angry at your partner that orgasm is going to be even harder to reach. Fix the internal issues before trying to change the sexual issues. There is sex therapist avail...